Nervous.

Well, it's official, court is tomorrow for SD's failure to comply with a court order, child support.
I'm practically dying from nerves. I spoke to another mother in my state who said that she was in the same situation with her child's father and they will do one of three things: 1) Tell him to pay X amount by 5PM (She said in my case, it'd probably be around $250) and if he fails, he goes to jail. 2) Take him directly to jail, do not pass Go, do not collect $200. 3) Set an order to garnish his wages. Though through a little of my own investigating, I found out that my state also suspends licenses from business, to drivers, to fishing.
I'm praying they will do something that will get his attention and not just give him another slap on the wrist as they always have. If they do something serious, he's going to figure out "Oh hey, I can't just get away with it, there are repercussions." and I can expect fairly regular payments. Though I've been let down by the court systems here before, I may be let down again.
Anyhow, I'm also nervous about seeing him, the dreaded SD. I keep playing scenarios over in my head and they're always so extreme, like him. Either he won't show up, or he will and just won't speak to me period because he believes that all this is my fault. Or he'll show up and try to be super nice thinking that I don't know he's wanting to terminate, and ask to see my son. Or he'll show up and be a complete dick about the entire situation.
Well, I've already gotten it all planned. You see, I am a woman who is pissed. Thursday, he had the nerve to message my husband's Facebook account and tell him to have me call the Judge and have the Judge call him so he can explain that he can't make it to court because he's sick and has no ride. I was livid. You have a phone with internet access and a computer with internet access, but you can't google a fucking number and call it yourself? Oh my, I was about cross eyed. Of course I message him back and tell him to do it himself, and that they won't continue court because he's sick and can't find a ride, they'll tell him to get a cab, but good luck anyways.
So at court, I plan to tell him, if he even shows, what needs to be said.
1) Do not show up at AK's party. If you want to terminate your rights, you don't get to have your cake an eat it too, I'll have you arrested for trespassing.
2) Don't ever ask me to do something for you again. I've been in need so many times and begged for help, and you blew me off. Do it yourself from now on. Call your own public aid attorney, call your own Judge, and call your own prosecutor, call your own case worker. I'm done doing it for you.
3) Don't ever contact me again. You can't respect me, and you can't respect my child, so don't call. You want to terminate your rights? Don't expect for me to be a friend afterwards.
And then I plan to walk away. If he says something, ignore him. Keep walking. If he tries to instigate a fight, walk away. I'm done saying what I have to say, why would I stick around any longer?
I just hope so badly that they do something to help my son, it's hard to provide for him alone.